The "It"
Most days I still recognize that we've experienced a lot of loss over the last year, but the grief is rarely overwhelming. A sense of relief comes over me as I think that maybe we are moving out of our season of loss and grief. Over the last few weeks, though, a few things have happened that remind me of my vulnerability and the need to stay at the feet of my Heavenly Father. My Dad was taken to the hospital by ambulance along with a string of serious health concerns, Reese has had the flu and pneumonia for 4 days, and the adoption laws changed significantly in the country in which we intend to adopt which gave me reason to believe that our adoption plans may change. What I am experiencing with these events isn't true loss but the anticipation of it. I have cried out to God, "Please no! No more loss. I can't handle it." But with those words I wonder if I am being un-trusting in my Lord. I want to be "willing" and "vulnerable", but I...