Selfish "What Ifs"
Our family received a beautiful gift last week- a video of our son (HC) that we are adopting from Asia. I felt like a fly on the wall as I watched he and his foster mother interact with one another, and for the first time I got to hear the squeal of his voice. Wow. I am so in love with this little boy that I've never met. God placed his need upon my heart before I even knew he existed. It will likely be another 7-12 months before he comes home - it feels so far away. A few nights ago, I had been tossing around the "what if's" in my mind. What if his birth mother comes back?... what if his foster mom decides to adopt him?... what if yet another law changes, and the government doesn't allow us to have him?... The what if's are never ending if I allow them. In hind sight, they seem like very selfish questions as they are all about how changes will impact me and my heart when such unexpected changes could potentially be for his better. 4:38am the fo...